Where The Sun Always Shines…

No Sunshine, Only Dark Clouds

I lost a very close and amazing friend to an accident this weekend…two days later… I still can’t wrap my head around it, I still cry. How could he be gone? We were just texting Friday! He was so young… only my Love’s age… We had never met irl, but we were old friends who had been through many struggles together. I can’t believe he’s gone. He was one of those friends who would look past the outer layer and see the inner one… he was a true friend. How can he be gone? I count him as one of my close and best friends who knew me for me. He was one of those who would check in on me just to see how I was. I miss him so much! We would have “iron sharpening” talks… we would question each other and why we believed what we did. He was a great friend! I wanna text, im or call him, but I know he won’t answer. But I still want to just because I want all this to be a dream… I want him to text back or call and say, “hey what’s up Manda?” I can hear his voice still. Can’t believe he is gone. Please pray for his parents, brother and sister… I know this is almost unbearable! Also please remember the Hanley’s who lost their lil’ “Tiggy” too.

For now, its “see ya later, my dear SulliedKnight!” because I won’t say goodbye… You were such an amazing friend, Ben!

Over the last few days, I’ve been thinking about life… there are just some things that are so pointless that we live for, that we dwell on, that we hold on to… then there are other things so important that we don’t care about, forget and throw out. We hold things against others, or loved ones, we don’t forgive, we get offended at the slightest thing, we KNOW our way is right and there is no other way because we are doing exactly what we are supposed, we don’t show each other how much we love each other or the love of Christ. When will we ever get over such pettiness?! Is that what our lives have come to? We are so petty. We pick and prod at such stupid things and fight over dumb crap, and let slide things that are what should be what we focus on that we have honestly lost sight of what life is: to live for our Savior and love everyone despite their faults or whether or not they do what we want or believe. Oh! We have lost sight of the purpose of life. You will never ever know how much longer you have… you know you have an end, but you don’t know when that is. You don’t know. You don’t always get that one more day.

We hold onto the mistakes in the past, and let go of the future that is fresh with no mistakes! You cannot change your past, but you can start fresh for the future RIGHT NOW! God wipes our lives clean when we come to Him, EVERYTIME we come to him, so we can start fresh again and yet as humans we hold onto the smallest grievance for years and don’t forgive! Who do we think we are! Life is too short for such stupidity! Why can’t we get along and live in love? Why is it so hard to let go and do what we are supposed! This is not what God wants for our lives! Not at all! He sent His only son to this earth to show us how to live and we don’t look at His example and do what He did. Why?!
Because we are humans, we don’t have to! It’s our lives and we will live ‘em like we want! Well NO! that’s wrong! it’s about time we start living like our Savior lived in His short 33years here!

Ben was only 24, full of life, waiting on God’s plan for him… I know Ben was not ready to go… but no one ever is…
So… this is your life… if your time was over, are you ready? Do you hold unforgiveness? Do those who love you know that you love them or that it doesn’t matter those small and petty things that may have upset you that you blew up about to them? Do they? Have you righted your wrongs?

If today was your last day, could you go at peace? This is your life, are you who you want to be?

with smiles,